Sunday, January 29, 2012

My new pet

I found a new pet in my room today and I want to thank the Tennessee Wilderness for sharing her with me. We'll call her Lucy. I guess she thought it would be nice to wear a skirt. Amusingly it was the same skirt I wanted to wear today as well. As I was getting dressed, she scurried her venomous body across my floor, leaving me aghast as I leaped two feet into the air, chucking my favourite skirt across my room.

I'm taking a gander that the tornadoes of last week gave me more than just a hefty leak and semi-sun roof in my living room. The winds were also so courteous to provide a route for Lucy and her friends to come and go as they please.

Suffice it to say, Lucy has now joined the underground swimming club. It is quite unfortunate that she won't be visiting any longer, and I've taken precautions (with massive amounts of duct tape) to ensure her friends do not take advantage of the secret passage way either.

So long friend...

Thursday, January 26, 2012

to you.

*original source unknown

Sunday, January 22, 2012

I cannot explain why, or how I create. All I know is that I have to.

"The secret is that making Art, creating things, is a transformative process. The act of creation takes certain elements of our psyche, energy, if you will, and morphs it out of our heads and into the real world. Matter can neither be created nor destroyed, but it can be alchemized. The reason why Art works so well in therapy is that it allows for negative energy and/or trauma to be cleared out of our heads, and turned into something productive, without having to speak about things literally. Pictures can communicate energy without words, and in so doing, can tell stories that would be otherwise stuck in the murky world of the subconscious. The act of creation is akin to shining light on our shadows, (Jung again) and it enables the creator the opportunity to move on. Catharsis"

- Jonathan Blaustein

Sometimes I feel like a lonely boat.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Finally a guide I can follow

I'm not one to complain about being single. I've been that way the majority of my life. If I had a man, I would not have been able to experience the things I did in my life. Of course, sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have someone by my side... just sometimes.

The average age for an American girl to first marry is 26.5. I'd like to interpret that as me being above average :)

So, I have begun my research in how all of this works:


In summary, do not end up like this:

... I think I can do this.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Hello Summer Break

well, eventually.

John Steinbeck on Falling in Love: A 1958 Letter

"And don’t worry about losing. If it is right, it happens — The main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away."

New York
November 10, 1958

Dear Thom:

We had your letter this morning. I will answer it from my point of view and of course Elaine will from hers.

First — if you are in love — that’s a good thing — that’s about the best thing that can happen to anyone. Don’t let anyone make it small or light to you.

Second — There are several kinds of love. One is a selfish, mean, grasping, egotistical thing which uses love for self-importance. This is the ugly and crippling kind. The other is an outpouring of everything good in you — of kindness and consideration and respect — not only the social respect of manners but the greater respect which is recognition of another person as unique and valuable. The first kind can make you sick and small and weak but the second can release in you strength, and courage and goodness and even wisdom you didn’t know you had.

You say this is not puppy love. If you feel so deeply — of course it isn’t puppy love.

But I don’t think you were asking me what you feel. You know better than anyone. What you wanted me to help you with is what to do about it — and that I can tell you.

Glory in it for one thing and be very glad and grateful for it.

The object of love is the best and most beautiful. Try to live up to it.

If you love someone — there is no possible harm in saying so — only you must remember that some people are very shy and sometimes the saying must take that shyness into consideration.

Girls have a way of knowing or feeling what you feel, but they usually like to hear it also.

It sometimes happens that what you feel is not returned for one reason or another — but that does not make your feeling less valuable and good.

Lastly, I know your feeling because I have it and I’m glad you have it.

We will be glad to meet Susan. She will be very welcome. But Elaine will make all such arrangements because that is her province and she will be very glad to. She knows about love too and maybe she can give you more help than I can.

And don’t worry about losing. If it is right, it happens — The main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets away.



Monday, January 9, 2012

Thinking of Ethiopia, trying to get outside of myself

Humble me, oh, Lord to do Thy Will. I need you more than ever to lead this broken heart towards yours. Oh, Lord, turn this heart away from worldy temptations, worries, and wants.

Wash me Savior, or I die.

Let me hide myself in The.

The Love of God by Ascend The Hill on Grooveshark

If you haven not downloaded this album, I suggest you get it.

Seriously, now! That's a command.

The albums' ardor and the guys' anointing has the potential to warm your soul.
And send the guys a little support if you have the means - they're good dudes.
If you're heart is not changed after listening to this, I'll give YOU your money back.

{Album cover linked to free download}


Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Just use the force.

I've fully succumb to to the fact that I am - and will always be - a dork.

Tonight I visited my best friend since I can remember. Our parents' made us become friends since no one else's kids were to be caught alone wandering the streets, riding bikes, playing Sega, or getting into the spray paint after 6pm. This is the girl who, in high school, was the leader of the pack. The one who's opinion mattered. She was the captain of the basketball team. You know, that girl who's comments pierced you right in the [social] heart. And I was the girl who sought acceptance from Punky Bruster and got kicks out of watching Welcome back Kotter. But for some reason, we were insuperable. We followed each other from preschool til high school graduation.

But as life should, it fell upon us. For some reason or another we drifted apart. And for years! But tonight, something magical occurred. The realization of that spark, that recognition of something magical happened.

Mandy was in her routine - bartending and speaking of something alcoholic or drug related, as I chimed in with my never-ending-dork-references.

Mandy - "They never pay attention to me." blah blah. something about tips and liquor...

Me - [explaining to her that she CAN receive all the tips she requests if only she uses the force] - "...Oh, Sorry that was a Star Wars reference."

Mandy - "Heh, yea, I never get your Star Wars references. That's why I love you."

I know that God has a place for her in my life. I have an undying, every-resistant love for this woman. We will forever be [completely] different, but I accept that. And I will continue to love this girl with all that God has placed in me. I thank God every day for you, Amanda Lynn :)

Let's just hope there is not another Horshack in my class next semester. Yes, MTSU, he does exist :/